|Posted on July 24, 2016 at 4:20 PM|
Life is just plain hard sometimes. Everything for me rigt now seems to be falling apart. I am a women of faith but I think I am at my breaking point. I have cried out for help, intervention and answers more times than I can count. Making life decisions for the better can be so difficult and over whelming. There are times I feel so alone. Not lonely just alone. I am fghting battles in every aspect of my life right now and hanging on by the grace of God. Financial burdens are present but are actually taking a back seat to everything else just lingering enough to cause stress and worry but never subsiding. I need a break, I need a break throug, I need change.
I appear to have my shit together to others looking in but I really don.t. I am so not where I thought I would be at my age and I am so far from where I want to be, that I am not sure I will ever make it. All I have is hope and blind faith that everything is going to turn around in my favor. I try to be a good person and I always see the good in people but I question why? Why should I always make the hard descsions and sacifices for others? It seems pointless when nothing is working. I don't want to become a synical, angry and bitter person and I'm fighting with everything I have not to become somene I swore I would never be.
All I can do is keep trying and keep my eyes focused on the future and the blessings I know are in store for me. I just really hope it comes soon.